The following post comes directly from Facebook, publicly posted by Hannah’s mother as a final update to all the many in the community who have followed Hannah Day’s journey over the years. In other posts, there is a request for privacy. Following that is the link to the GoFundMe page set up to support Hannah’s family.
Today most will be celebrating Mother’s Day while I’m mourning the death of a child . Hannah was born on August 7th 2009 . A healthy full term baby weighing 5 pounds 15 ounces . Never in a million years would I ever thought she would spend her life suffering . Having to tell Hailey her sister is going to heaven was the hardest thing a mother could do . Listening to poor Hailey say to her “ I don’t understand why you can’t wake up “ , “I have to be the big sister now “ . Listening to Hailey cry hysterically for her sister is burned into my head forever . I had no idea by going home to re pack for another long stay would result in Hannah going unresponsive and me missing any opportunity to hold her again . The hardest thing was packing up our stuff and walking out of her room . Walking down the hospital hallway without her . Knowing she was back in her room . Buckling 2 kids into a car seat and not 3. Driving away from the hospital leaving her behind . How we walk into a home of memories . How do I return to the school where each day I watched my beautiful child open those school doors , smile and run into my arms . These photos are some of our last memories with our beautiful innocent adorable little girl .
Now you are all wondering what happened :
Hannah has endured 7 years of treatment . Something no child should ever have to go through . Every obstacle she fought so hard . Against odds she was still here . But this time they gave her to much chemotherapy . It wiped her immune system further then they ever expected . Allowing a bacterial infection to take over . Hannah didn’t stand a chance . It first attacked her heart . She was rushed into the icu while I was stuck on the island . I walked into a horrific scene . My child screaming in pain . Over 30 lines running into her body . Surgical procedure being done with no pain meds or sedation because of her heart . Watching blood pouring from her mouth . The bacterial infection attacked her liver and she was bleeding out internally . She had gone into septic shock . As we stand there watching all this Hannah yells “everyone leave me alone “ . The last words I heard her say . I knew at that point we had to put a stop to the suffering . We couldn’t let this continue . She was being tortured . She was terrified . She was in pain everywhere . We had a meeting scheduled for 5pm with our oncologist about our options . Rob and I decided at that time we would walk into the room and make the hardest decision a parent could do . Was to give Hannah exactly what she asked for . To be left alone . From that moment I didn’t want her touched . I wanted her removed from all machines . I can’t believe I was asking them to do this but we were being selfish by keeping her here . If Hannah would of made it out of icu our doctor confirmed our biggest fear she would of died in Seattle . Out of the country and with no family around . 7 years of treatment had done havoc on her tiny little body and she just didn’t stand a chance . No matter how hard she fought . So why make her suffer twice . This is no decision any parent should have to make . Rob and I sat there in that meeting room hyperventilating. Hysterically crying . Not sure what to do . Hearts racing . But in the end it was time to say good bye . They were able to bring her out of ICU and back up to her room on the 8th floor at bc children’s hospital . Hannah’s body needed a tremendous amount of support and by removing the machines we knew it was only amount of time . How does a parent unhook their child from machines keeping her alive . We hated them for asking if we were ready . At 8pm she was disconnected from the machines . Surrounded by family we told her how beautiful and loved she was . We do not know if she could hear us but we didn’t care . We kissed her over and over again . We told her everything we could to make life easier and have no regrets . Once the machines were turned off Hannah could be the only one to decide when she was ready to go . They told us minutes to hours but poor Hannah held on for almost 12 hours . We had to sit there and watch her die . Watch blood pour from her mouth , watch her struggle to breath and not be able to help . Watch her little body turn purple . We will always be forever traumatized . Images we shouldn’t of had to see burned into our memory . Those 10 hours were torture . Life will never be the same . She deserved a beautiful life and it was cut short . Never even learning to ride a bike . She already had her birthday invites done . She had a future she was planning for . Life is cruel . She only got 9 short years on earth and suffered for most of them . Her family will forever suffer . This will be my last post for a while or possibly forever . I have a lifetime of making up to Hailey for all the neglecting she got . The torture she was put through . She lived in a hospital room being yelled at for playing and being loud . Never allowed to do anything that could possibly upset Hannah . It’s time to walk away from this chapter of the story . This Facebook wasn’t mine it was a story of our beautiful most precious daughters life . All she wanted was a pony tail . Most of you haven’t met her but she had the most softest sweetest tiniest little voice . Everything she asked for was so sad . “ when I can see can we make slime “ , “ mom why are these bumps in my head “ “ when we go home can we stop at the mall “. Her little voice burned into my head . She just wanted to be a child . I will return when I’m able to face the photos and memories. I may create a new account all together if I think it might make life a little easier. I’m just no where near ready to see photos of her . Thank you everyone for the love over the years . For supporting our family and making life easier. I love you all so much . I wish I could of met you all. Good bye for now .